The Sad News

Friday evening I got a letter from my doctor's office. In a nutshell, my doctor (V) is quitting her practice and moving away. When I read the letter, I was devastated and just started crying. I can't believe she is leaving! I try not to think about it because it makes me feel so sad. Not only will I miss her, but I will miss her nurse (K) as well. I really have grown to love these two women over the years. They are my friends.

I also am not thrilled about the prospect of finding a new doctor. I tend to have trust issues and don't always divulge a lot of information at first. The whole well woman exam will not be happening for years and years now. I don't think I will talk about the knee pain that is getting worse with a new person just yet and I don't know that I will talk about the headaches & dizziness I have when I wake up all the time either. The main thing I don't want to talk to someone else about is my pancreas. I don't want to have to try to prove to someone else that I am not some closet alcoholic. That tends to be the popular belief when I see a new physician. I am hoping that my pancreatic problems are gone. I have had some minor problems with it since my surgery, but it seems to be much better. Maybe I won't even need a doctor any more.

This whole situation stinks. I hope that I will run into (K) sometimes and that I will still get to visit with her on occasion. At least she will still be in town and I'm sure that as amazing as she is, she will find a new job soon. I am not as hopeful for seeing (V) ever again. She will not be here and, honestly, I don't know where she is planning on going. It may even be to a different state for all I know. To think of never seeing either of them again makes me sad and I try not to think about it because I cry like a little baby. I really hope that they will keep in touch somehow and that I won't entirely lose contact with them. I guess that's all for now. I need to get in bed before midnight and hope that I will actually be able to sleep through the night for a change.