And now it is July 2013

So I have beaten the odds a bunch of times. I am still working at the pharmacy where I started in 2011. I might not be for much longer. My attendance points are adding up. I really try not to miss work, but sometimes I am not able to help it. Aside from the attendance points, I do really well at my job. I have excellent quality scores. I talked to my boss about the fact that I am almost to the point of losing my job due to absences. She told me I could take family medical leave. She doesn't want to lose me at work either. So I called about that. I am temporarily approved, but I have to get my doctor to complete a form. No problem...you would think. Actually it could be a problem. I haven't gone to my new doctor here except for a couple of times. I am now out of my meds and was going to seek an appointment for that anyway. I was just so discouraged and so tired of doctors' visits that I haven't gone. I still have four kids at home to raise. I have to live eight more years until my youngest reaches adulthood. Then all bets are off.  If I can't get my doctor, who knows very little about me, to approve FMLA then I am in serious trouble. I just spent the last two days in pain and nausea. So that's it. I have reached the limit on my attendance points. I am feeling better now, but not completely. Bleh. I don't know what I am going to do if I lose this job. I just wish I could be better. I am tired of being sick.

Summer 2011

I wish I could say things are better. They are not worse physically. Everything is about the same there. Periods of feeling fine; sometimes days sometimes even weeks and then back to the same old pancreatitis routine. At the end of the year school year in 2010, our district was facing budget cuts. 17 teachers lost their jobs and who better to cut than someone with less than stellar attendance due to health issues. Now, they can't legally say it was because of that. It is due to budget constraints. So long story short...I have lost in the last couple of years my home, my car, and my job. I was just hired at a call center for a pharmacy. I start on August 12th. It does not pay well, but you take what you can get. I have to find a new doctor here and start all over again.  I have hoarded a lot of my meds so I should be good for a while. I have LOTS of my enzymes, some nausea meds, blood pressure meds and some pain meds. I hope they last for a while. I am discouraged and so sick of being sick.

.....added recently. This was still listed as a draft!